Yes, it's a question. It's also what I believe to be an appropriate title for this particular post, for several reasons. 1) It's raining like a motherfucker. 2) Billy Talent was just on the radio (hence) 3) It's the best say to describe this post in 20 or so characters.
Being "jaded" is a commodity in our society these days, it seems. People get hurt from past relationships, they shut up, shut out, shut off. Emotionally. They can still go through all the motions of carrying on a relationship, and the person they're with may never really know them at all. Isn't that a little bit scary? Maybe it's just me.
Most of the time, people look at me like I'm a naive kid. Which is probably very, very true. However, I also have common sense and as many experiences to draw from as the next person. Just because I don't take my hurt out on everyone doesn't mean there never was any. I just know who it was intended for. If any of my exes, for example, wanted to get back together, I'd probably agree, take them to the nearest bedroom, and give them a hot carl.
This can mean one of two things: I'm either light years ahead of everyone else and know how to deal with my emotions, or I am very stupid and am gearing up toward a world of hurt that will knock me off my ass and leave me bitter once all is said and done. Maybe, both of these possibilities are true. Maybe I am just sponge and I soak up everything. Who knows.
I don't wanna miss any chances. I don't wanna miss out on some great person just because of something someone else did however long ago. The thing that hurts the most in this situation, is not that this individual would not pursue something with me, it's that there is SO much in the way. Out of everything, the one thing I find to be insurmountable is the fact that since his bad experience, he has "never let anyone in. Not even half of a percentage in." What am I supposed to do about THAT?
If anything I wish it wasn't so hard to get through the walls people build. Think about that the next time you interact with a guarded heart. It might suck ass, but it might be great. Not everyone wants to hurt you. Be willing to roll the dice.
Being "jaded" is a commodity in our society these days, it seems. People get hurt from past relationships, they shut up, shut out, shut off. Emotionally. They can still go through all the motions of carrying on a relationship, and the person they're with may never really know them at all. Isn't that a little bit scary? Maybe it's just me.
Most of the time, people look at me like I'm a naive kid. Which is probably very, very true. However, I also have common sense and as many experiences to draw from as the next person. Just because I don't take my hurt out on everyone doesn't mean there never was any. I just know who it was intended for. If any of my exes, for example, wanted to get back together, I'd probably agree, take them to the nearest bedroom, and give them a hot carl.
This can mean one of two things: I'm either light years ahead of everyone else and know how to deal with my emotions, or I am very stupid and am gearing up toward a world of hurt that will knock me off my ass and leave me bitter once all is said and done. Maybe, both of these possibilities are true. Maybe I am just sponge and I soak up everything. Who knows.
I don't wanna miss any chances. I don't wanna miss out on some great person just because of something someone else did however long ago. The thing that hurts the most in this situation, is not that this individual would not pursue something with me, it's that there is SO much in the way. Out of everything, the one thing I find to be insurmountable is the fact that since his bad experience, he has "never let anyone in. Not even half of a percentage in." What am I supposed to do about THAT?
If anything I wish it wasn't so hard to get through the walls people build. Think about that the next time you interact with a guarded heart. It might suck ass, but it might be great. Not everyone wants to hurt you. Be willing to roll the dice.
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